Can't Tell Me Nothing

In the wake of my arrest, I reflect upon what led up to the events and think about what will happen. Most would say that the amount and rate I consumed my drinks that night would put me in the same group as those labeled alcoholics; none of those people are in the Army though. I beg to differ as the only reason I drank that much, and drank at such a high rate was because it was there. Take what you can, when you can. Live for today, I say. Not that there is a shortage of alcohol, just that we should all enjoy what is going on in the moment, throw caution out the window and down another glass. The way I see it, you don't know when the next good time will happen; life gives us a lot of burdens. At least with that memory of that one party, or night out drinking with the guys, or whatever it is you look to do for fun, it makes dealing with life a little easier.

Some will ask though, was it worth it? You were arrested, you disappointed your NCOs, you are looking at losing money and rank and time. Hell yes it was worth it! In the end I still have a job, I am still alive and I have a funny story to tell. I once heard that there is no such thing as right or wrong, just the consequences of our actions and dammit, I am willing to accept those consequences even if I don't agree with them. I spent too much time regretting things in my past to let this affect me. No, for now on all I will do is adapt to the ever changing situation that is life. Making plans and trying to do the "right thing" is a waste because you can't control the variables. I can't control the variables. If I walk out of this thing with a slap on the wrist, it is not because I am a good Soldier, because I do the "right thing." It is because I am lucky, and that is all I hope for. Yet, no matter what comes of this you won't be able to persuade my way of thinking, no you can't tell me nothing.